Courage My Love - Dec 10, 2010

Life is getting harder as we draw down to the darkest days of  December. Came into work today and there is a massive layoff, down to about 62 people left. Not the greatest timing for sure, but I am extra nervous. We have long been sheltered from the blasts of the spiralling economy, but perhaps our turn has come.

Fuck me, I am 58 years old, and I don't want to look for another job. This one is just great, suits me to a T. It's certainly not demanding, sometimes annoying but mostly it pays well and the benefits are great. I have a five year plan and scrambling for work was not in it.

I feel deeply for all those laid off, at any time but especially at this time. Every person laid off is a family, a house, a mortgage. We can all take a little hit, but if it goes on too long, then we never recover. My plan was to get the hell out of debt, which I am doing very well, and sock a bunch away, and then head up the coast. I want to own everything cash money when I retire, no outstanding payments on anything. Right now I have rent, the car payment, debt repayment, the utilities, insurance, the list is endless when there is no money coming in. I mean, I am okay, not laid off, but it won't be long at this rate.

So I won't blow a wad on presents this year, and I'll certainly stay out of the casino for a while.... being on the bitter edge of poverty takes Courage My Love....